Choose your life

Today I will be doing the exercise with my fellow Landmark classmates on choosing everything in my life. It is not difficult to choose the good things, it is difficult to choose the annoying and challenging ones. My most challenging area at the moment is choosing and accepting that my significant person is very independent and does not miss me as I do. Will test if the exercise really makes me accept that.  

Om Namah Shivaya

Liz Gilbert

My physically exhausted body is swimming in the expansion the mantra ''Om Namah Shivaya'' provides. 

I heard about it from writer Elizabeth Gilbert in her book Eat Pray Love. She says she adores it and explains its meaning as “I honor the divinity within me.” 

I do honor the divinity within me. The delicateness within.

And I do love Elizabeth Gilbert's writing, she writes so deliciously it completely takes me over. Imagining we are chanting together: Om Namah Shivaya. Liz, you and me...  Bonne nuit!   

Delicateness within

Worked whole day, right now best medicine for me going deeper into me is a good sleep. Had a challenge as I was team leading today and I am normally pretty individualistic, taking care that my job is done well, don't like to be responsible for other people... But it went quite well and I actually enjoyed it. 

Reflecting on Adrienne Ryan's explorations of our delicateness within: Re-discovering the delicateness within. Lovely. 

Good night x  

Sing a song! ;)

Momcilo Bajagic

I've decided to take it today lightly, no deep digging, I am happy as a singer that I listened to in my teenage years is coming to London and I will be able to enjoy his concert.

Hey, sing with me ;) - the singer from Serbia, Balkan  - Momcilo Bajagic - Bajaga

Vulnerability

Slovene Kurents dancing - to cheer me up ;)

Yesterday I took a look into my vulnerability. Why do certain things still pain me though I do know I am amazing, made of love, universal energy, and everything is perfect in any moment as it is? 

I explored a bit on how other people grow through this. Found a blog post of a woman whose issues were with body image which is not my topic, but the pain of other people not being caring towards me is kind of similar to hers. Blog post here: A vulnerable moment.

If I understand that everything is in balance, and somebody that keeps on kicking me at a place I would without that kicking feel very comfortable at, well, why is that so? I am prone to be comfortable and enjoy comfort and than not move much and at a snail speed. So why am I not grateful for this person's effort? (keeping this now in mind and it helps a tiny little bit, I need to expand on awareness of it). And the second person, which is a very dear person in my life for quite a while, yet it pains me as this person does not have as much need for our spending time together as I do. Why is this so? And why is it so painful? Liz Gilbert from Eat, Pray, Love would say find a man that can feed you with as much energy (attention) as you need. That could be one way. Another way is that I learn to self-feed. Not missing the attention as my life is anyway with or without it glorious. Wow! That's a fabulous mission to accomplish!   

Au revoir! x

Feeling whole and complete

If I am really settled in me and living out of my inner centre nothing can really hurt or pain me regarding reactions to me from people around. I am whole and complete. That is how I sometimes feel. Very rarely. Today I am obviously not really connected to my centre as I worry about two people's reactions on me. 

I am going to look into this more deeply in the following days, looking for a way to feel whole and complete, connected to the amazing inside of me all the time.  

''Being settled in me''

The number one thing that settles me inside my body is having time to do my morning routine before my day starts. I looked into why am I often not waking up the right time, cozily staying in bed, or going to bed too late, with the help of Landmark's ''Living life with purpose, grace and ease'' seminar and now it got really easy to go to sleep the right time and wake up early so I do have time for settling in me.

We've done a couple of exercises of what I do chose and what I don't chose inside of life I live and they made all the difference. I am now living with ease and grace and not out of a struggle like: ''Oh, it is so difficult to get out of bed!'' The other ''oh'' prevails: ''Oh, going into the world in a state of ''being settled in me'' is so delicious!'' 

:) good morning! bon jour!

Living life from inside out - daily practice

Cotswold's pretty paths

I've been attending meetings of a women's group of esoteric practice for more than three years. I still find it a challenge to keep the awareness of living life from the inside out present with me through daily life. Yes, I remember it most mornings and most evenings. During the day, my body, my mind and everything else I consist of mostly goes on autopilot performing tasks that are needed at work. Yes, sometimes I vaguely remember my practice and than I get swallowed by the next task. 

This blog supported me greatly to make meditation part of my daily life habits again. I will use it in the next period to establish a stronger habit of esoteric way of life. Esoteric meaning living life from inside out. 

I know it sounds philosophical, I had moments or days when I felt: wow, this is so delicious! and than I lost it and ... Yesterday afternoon at the women's meeting I felt it again. I want it now to stay with me forever.

Here is the website explaining a bit about the reason behind women's meetings: Esoteric group women's meetings.  

Vitality comes from being engaged and active

Slovene masquerade in London

Resting and relaxing after a pleasant day in the office. Going into deep meditation a bit later. This week I am training patience and softness coming from being centered. There is something new on the horizon of my relationship life and I am training to stay grounded without too much attachment to the outcome.     

I've also started a new round of Landmark's evening seminars: ''Living passionately'' which coaches you into life with purpose, grace and ease. One thing that really hit me and I am using it now is: ''Vitality comes from being active.'' I would often think I need to rest and pause more during long hours at work, yet in reality if I keep a steady flow of engaged and contributing work, I am less tired and more vital at the end of the day. I've met a couple of really lovely people at the seminar, one of them an author, who gave me a very constructive and useful feedback on my writing technique which I am now learning to improve. Enjoy your meditations x

Meditation as a new habit

Meditation became part of my daily routine again and that was my intention when I started with daily blog posts. I do it either in the morning or evening. If you are struggling with creating a habit for your daily practice here is a great blog to encourage you with it: 10-steps-for-starting-new-habit-and-creating-lasting-change  

And do go to the beginning of my blog and each day read a post and listen to one of the meditation videos. I am sure if you follow through for 3 months your brain will get used it and create a new habit.

I will be posting from now on weekly as the writing part of my day became very busy. Need to rewrite entire diary into a story. It is going to be an amazing inspirational story!! :-)

Bisous

Integrity

Saturday night

I've been a bit sloopy lately with my postings, though I still practice meditation regularly. There is no real excuse for it, I just got carried away with things happening around me. 

Don't worry, be happy :)

Let me know how your practice is going.

Feeling of bliss

I am working on feeling blissful 24/7 like after a long long meditation retreat at the sea.
What are you working on?

Shavasana mmmmm

Feeling nicely relaxed after shavasana with Sebastian. His yoga teaching is full of playful and chill presence. Now I can transmit it to everyone I meet :)

Have a friend who started listening to meditation videos I recommend and he finds it boring. Well, if I want to develop toned muscles and better cardio rate I need to practice. He would like to be more peaceful and handle pressure and stress better. With a touch of a magic wand. 

If you find meditation boring (because your consciousness has not yet realized its full benefit), go for a massage, with a masseur that is quiet, no talking, and handles you well, or go for a walk through the woods. Alone. Phone switched off. Yoga is of course a good start as well. 

Namaste :-)  mmmm

New attack of tiredness

New attack of tiredness. My teacher Savina Atai says that the spring tiredness you heal with action, movement, growth; not with relaxation as the winter tiredness. I've moved a lot today, but went to bed late last night as looked at funny video clips from the Oscars. So am going to go to bed early tonight. Enjoy your meditations!  

Cultural exploration

          Karađorđe Petrovic

Resting and relaxing Saturday. People at Serbian event last night were very warm&friendly. Learnt a bit about Serbian history, Karađorđe Petrovic was the founder of modern Serbia.

Playing with the edit now.

Meditate well!