Self-worth?

So much soothing and nurturing energy at our women's meetings... I always get to relax way deeper than normally. We discussed self worth  - when do we feel that we have it and when do we lose it. 

I still feel the burn in my stomach so I think I will first dedicate myself to heal this, before going into other ''deep'' topics.

Hope you are all well and enjoying the lovely Chopra Centre meditations x

Living life inside out - one month recap

Tomorrow I am attending the next  Women in Livingness meeting. I've decided last month that I will keep myself on track with this diary and really live my life from inside out. It worked for a while, than I got distracted with a trip home, and painful mouth ulcers as I returned. Spent an hour in meditation with Chopra centre today and I feel recharged and ready to continue.

Looking forward to tomorrow's work with the group and now good night :) Sticking to my most supporting activity to settle inside myself which is an early night xx  

Healing

Merci

Came back to London with a burn in my stomach. I've eaten quite healthy so I don't think I've got it from food... 

Relaxing with healing attention on my stomach. 

New round of Chopra Centre meditation challenge

New round of Chopra Centre meditation challenge has started a few days ago. I am looking forward to listen to their meditations together with thousands of other people this evening and over Easter. 

Join us on: 21 day Chopra Centre Meditation Challenge 

Authenticity

Flying home to Slovenia this morning! Looking forward to see my dear family! x
I am going to work on being fully authentic, not trying to look good in my mum and dad's eyes.
And you?  

Keeping my essence protected

with Tamara Machavariani

How to keep unaffected by reactions of other people? Particularly negative reactions... That's what I am taking on today. My boss has ''before going away'' nervousness and I feel weak because of the new relationship that needs lots of adjustment work, and than I am even more open to receive nervousness and other negative influences from others. 

It is great if I could choose and only surround myself with people that fill me up positively like Tamara on the pic. But than again, who is really always positive? I need to stay deep in me and not let me be affected by other people. Enjoying the presence of my own delicious essence.  

Connecting to inner bliss

Winning team - Oxford 

Today I am again recalling the experience I had at the seaside retreat on a Croatian island Brac. Feeling so free, loving, happy, everything will be well... Nothing was too big of an obstacle, I was in the feeling of bliss. I want it back for good! Need to remind myself every couple of minutes that this is what I am practicing, otherwise I slip back into my normal, can't wait till 5pm (end of work) time.   

Rhythm

Team Cambridge

A couple of days with messy ''going to sleep'' rhythm and I am not well connected to myself. Can't wait for a relaxing evening and meditation.

x

Yesterday's team Cambridge. Lost the game, but hopefully gain a valuable life lesson.    

Cheers!

Boat race watching

I came to this planet on today's date 39 years ago.  That's a lot of years though it feels they've passed by so quickly! Looking back: from a frustrated and angry teenager I've developed into a young woman enjoying in peace coming from meditation, enjoying seaside retreats, than had a couple of years to taste the business life in London, and now peaceful enjoyable life with friends, reading, exploring anything that interests me. Cheers!! to me :)

Inner life - Outside life by Douglas LaBier

''Your inner life is the foundation for moving transformation forward, for knowing how and why you're living and using your capacities in the ways that you do. With a strong inner life you feel grounded and anchored. You know who you are, what you're truly living for and how to keep evolving towards it.'' Douglas LaBier

I am inspiring myself to connect to my inner world with a blog post from Douglas LaBier: Redefine success through living an inside-out life.

Cookies!

Rebecca's baking

Living my life from inside out. 

My inside is today a bit foggy, missing communication with my sweetheart, having the clearing part of the month, plus distracted by bake sale and busy time at work. It's the writing of this post that is getting me to be connected to it again...

:) wishing you all to feel the sweet connection with yourself  

Healing session with Sara Williams

Tower Bridge, London

I've started the day with a healing session by Sara Williams. We've discussed my upper belly sensitivity and tension and how that shows that I am leaving myself to be with other people, adjusting myself to all the roles that I am playing in life. I've been working with Landmark and with esoteric healing group on being authentic all the time. (Sara Williams is an esoteric healing practitioner:  Spherical living ). 

I really want to be me, authentic version of me all the time, but I guess my whole life learnt behavior of  being reserved, having barriers and protection, handling situations diplomatically has an effect that I am not an authentic but very guarded version of me. 

Will take this on - starting with the morning feeling ''being inside of my body'' and than keeping that all the way through. Letting people in.     

Choosing the delicate part of my life

We were very diligent last night and each member of our group got to go deeper into what is hard to accept in our lives. I really love this group, each member brings something interesting to my life. One of the members is a writer, been writing for 20 years and can give me great tips on book structure and engaging writing. He also keeps on telling me I am too much on a plate relationship wise. Well, yes I guess I can take that on. Another is a very fashionable and exquisite photographer. A lovely man, makes me feel very warm and protected when around. A Russian girl, brings in clarity and focus to our work, also gives me lots of practical tips of how to navigate early stages of a relationship. A Belgium girl, so delicately French... Last night we met at her apartment which she presented as run down, and not really presentable, and it is so lovely! Next to Sloane Square, Chelsea (one of best London areas) on both sides of the building lovely parks with wonderful bushes and flowers... And in the flat itself, candles and special tea pots which made me feel like in a cupcake shop. And a very feminine and pretty girl Asian origin. 

What I discovered last night was that the pain I am feeling missing my significant person calling me more often is connected to my missing contacts with my father after he got more busy with his career. Same point as I came to with the previous set of sex and intimacy seminars. I thought I have resolved it than but obviously I didn't. Tonight might meet a friend that is doing lots of family constellations work and lets see where this brings me. 

I love the delicateness in me. 

I do feel a bit delicate right now.