Staring at the empty page. Can I do that? Can I start writing from scratch for the 3rd time? I finished the structure, it looks good. But I know what kind of commitment is that. It might take me again a year to complete. Although maybe I am now better prepared and it will be done faster. I'm helping to ease my anxiety by listening to instrumental relaxation music. And thinking of my ancestors that fought German soldiers in resistance movement in Slovenia during second world war. Living in the woods. Every day could have been your last. Your brother was shot dead. Your friends were shot dead. But you kept on going. Freedom fighters. Crazy believers into brotherhood among people living on this planet. People living united, in peace with one another. I can write it for them. I have to write it. Inner peace for all!
