A day of peace

Holland Park, London

Peace and quiet, Demartini and National Geographic documentaries today for me, before heading to Slovenia. Hope you all enjoyed the day. Vesna  

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all my friends that celebrate it! 

My family and I celebrate similarly in the days around New Year. I will see all my aunties and uncles and cousins in Slovenia. And of course my dear immediate family. 

Just jump!

I've just checked through my values with Demartini's evaluation process and relationship is one of the top ones. Meaning I will have to do some action on this field. I most of the time try to push relationship in ''once I have time for it'' field. Once I love myself enough. Once that the universe thinks it is the right time, I will bump into my perfect partner. 

Just jump Vesna! It will be all fine :)

Masterplan for 2014 - by Dr John Demartini

Dr John Demartini

A plan for life, a masterplan of what you want to experience and achieve, significantly adds to your vitality - says one of my highly respected and my mind expanding teachers Dr John Demartini.

I will start working on it today - here are some guidelines if you want to join in: Master planning for life (you need to scroll a bit down the page to find the description).

10 steps to become happier

It did make me happier even watching this little video :)
Meditation is listed as one of the 10 Scientific Steps to Being Happier   Enjoy!

Dentist

I've slowed down so much I forgot to post last night :) Preparing for the dentist now, working on my lower belly peace and expansion.

Slowing down - winter time

Winter is a time to rest more. Here is a good article about nature's and our cycle: Winter solstice. I am full of chocolates, hope you are better at restraining than me. Though sunbathing during lunch break fulfilled me with light. Au revoir!

Inner peace

I established a deeper level of inner peace in the last few days. Going to bed earlier, not too much excitement in the evening, attending esoteric developers meeting on Sunday confirmed me yet again that, that is how I want to live - at peace. Why is peace so important? The more I feel at peace the more connected I feel to the inside of me. Centered and then everything feels right.    

Beauty: Isabel Marant spring collection

Relaxing, meditating and visualizing with Isabel Marant's spring collection on the following video: Isabel Marant

Relaxing deeper now, remembering my psychic's guidance to meditate properly. Get so easily disturbed by all the excitements of the material life existence. 

I allow my guides to guide me. I allow my guides to guide me. I do allow my guides to guide me.    

Yoga Nidra

I explored new relaxation practices this weekend, one of them being yoga nidra and I really relaxed well being guided by this video: Yoga Nidra   enjoy! 

Sex and Intimacy seminar series

What I've got from this Landmark's seminar series is: I can clearly name what I stand for: ''I exist for inner peace.'' 

I can clearly see what is holding me back when it comes to creating a romantic relationship with my chosen man. 

I started to work on allowing men in my life closer to me. 

I am a very interesting woman to me. 

Best relaxation techniques

at the Greek

Woke up so tired I spent these first few hours of my precious Saturday just relaxing. First with deep cleansing breaths, then with meditation, than I went back to bed, and now... browsing through a book called Relaxation for Dummies, looking to discover something new, a new magical technique that I haven't tried out yet. Beside things I already know it talks highly about yoga nidra, so will check it out.  

I am still gathering my thoughts on experiences from Sex and Intimacy seminars, will dive deeper in tomorrow. 

Have a Dummy Relaxed weekend!

x 

A cup of tea

Deep depth of inner peace please cleanse me of all the tiredness and feeling down that is present right now.
My forcefully raised up lip corners are already making me feel better, and the 'Almost French' book cracked me up again during lunch break.
Though I still feel rather low. I thought I could be in a relationship by the end of the daring seminar series. And... I am not even close to anything... I am happy that I know and understand myself better. And I am happy to see my friends for a cup of tea tonight. I guess that will be it for now.

Practicing open eye, behind the work desk, meditation. I am one of the last ones in the office so I can indulge in a few minutes of peace before heading out. And you?    

Relax, relax, relax

Last evening of Sex and intimacy seminar series tonight. Will write a summary on Saturday. Taking one of my exes with me to see if this would help him release disappointment over his divorce. I know it would, but men often have the attitude: ''I can do it myself'', and then  it takes them ages to work through things where they could be sorted in one weekend. Can't wait for some proper and long relax time, I feel life is spinning me around far too fast and I am not centered. Hope you are at peace feeling the deep stillness of December.       

Karaoke night

Some serious partying going on lately. I practiced staying centered and relaxed last night, though the excitement still burns me out. Bring on extended times of meditation practice! 

Deep relaxation

hot chocolate from Le Garrick

I have some time to relax really deeply before work. This makes me feel really happy on one side, on the other, I'd love my life has more meaning and I do more ''inner peace'' connected work. So I might relax for a short time and continue with my edit before I need to leave the house.

This reading and rereading and rereading the same diary over and over again because of edit, makes me see really strongly who I am. And the difference between who I want to see me to be. Can't wait to complete another one and observe has any real evolution happened. Enjoy your day 

Lady Gaga, Dizzee Rascal...

Jingle Bells concert, O2 London

Jingle Bells concert at the London O2 venue last night. I enjoyed most of it, particularly when started to move and not just watch. Love Dizzee Rascal, how natural he is on stage. And of course all the boybands and their sexy frontmen. Relaxing and releasing my over excitement now, meeting a friend opera singer for lunch. I turned into a busy socialite in the last month, need to change something as I miss tranquility.   

Christmas period is coming, it is good to do lots of relaxation and inner peace activities at that time. Maybe not because of Christmas maybe just as winter in nature is meant to be a recharge period and that's how it works on us humans too. If we've not programmed ourselves to be total machines and disconnected from the rest already...  

xx connecting to you right now

Music

I love waking up with an inspiring music and a bit of dancy clearing moves. I am very careful though whose music I listen to. Is that person an inspiring person with a happy, healthy and balanced life? Do I want my morning message to be coming from them? Michael Benhayon practices living out of inner heart for years so I am listening to him this morning: Glorious Music  

Inspiration

Selfridges, Manchester

Relaxing in bed. My train arrived with 1.5h delay. Tired but happy. I've checked out a couple of designer pieces and at the end decided my wardrobe at home is doing quite well. 

Ah no, I am lying. Would love to have the white jeans with light blue pattern and the blue white jacket from the Isabel Marant rail. And the sailor themed Chanel bag. But for all that I would have to contribute more to this planet and make more money.

Sleep and maybe I think of something tomorrow.

xx   

  

Sleep :-)

It's not even 9pm but I am already so sleepy. Tomorrow catching a train at 6am so I think it's not a bad idea to say goodbye to this day. We've done meditation together with my neighbor, a lovely girl into energy healing. Good night and meditate well everyone! 

Glass half full

Relaxing into my newest experiences and learnings and taking life as glass half full and not half empty. Appreciating all the good things - my day off today, last night dinner with friends, today's dinner with a very lively and funny friend, Saturday's trip to visit my friends who live in a countryside... My gorgeous life, full of growth and wisdom expansion.

Namaste

Pilates relaxation

Off to pilates now. 

Will give my thoughts on men a break and relax properly for a couple of days.

Just me, my friends, writing and reading.

Heaven ;) 

Breakdowns and breakthroughs

I felt so affected by my learnings about men last night that I forgot to post on my blog. Well I still stand for bringing men in my life close to me and it actually happened with two of them and I am really grateful for that and it inspires me to go on with it. Though with one male friend we had an absolute breakdown, total misunderstanding, so severely he actually blocked me on Facebook. Blocked as a spammer, or somebody offensive. Which I really don't think I was, but men, women, well, sometimes it is difficult to understand each other.

Relaxing in the gratitude to the two men that made my heart feel warm and also to my dad that showed more interest in my life in the recent email. 

Warm, peaceful and loving

mmmm, tasty

Repeating my yesterday's mantra: I am warm, peaceful and loving when it comes to creating friendships with men in my life. I might see a male friend of mine later on today. Looking forward to a reality test.   

Intimacy with men - work in progress

I've noticed one thing clearly when being at sex and intimacy seminars. My intimacy with women is flowing, open, warm. I have many female friends, I don't feel too attached to a particular friendship, we love each other when we are together and we love each other when we reconnect if we lose contact for a while. I don't or very rarely feel hurt by anything in relationship to female friends. 

When it comes to men, I put a brake on every single time I feel I might be in danger, which is quite often. I rather avoid them, stay reserved, keep them at a distance... I feel I don't understand them, all they want is sex... I don't have many male friends.

What I am taking on now is to be warm, peaceful and loving when it comes to creating friendships with men in my life.  

Bliss

Blissful Me - was the title of today's 21-day meditation challenge. It teaches us adults how to feel in bliss when we don't feel it naturally. I feel far apart from it today, so this topic comes in even more handy. Connecting to inner bliss now. 

All good things

Sarah Turnbull

Love Sarah Turnbull's style of writing. Observing the environment and culture she lives in, expressing it in a comic way, plus adding  in her personal life experiences. ''Almost French'' is making me laugh widely that I have to hide my face when sitting in a tube. I am looking forward to read her second book All Good Things. Here is an interesting review of it: Review of Sarah Turnbull's ''All good things''

And me... Life is turning around so quickly. I have to finish my editing and move on.

Au revoir!

x

       

21-day Chopra centre meditation challenge

I am at day 13 - it is still time to join Chopra Centre meditations: https://chopracentermeditation.com/ . Looking forward to one again tonight

Delicious life

Woke up and was first just relaxing in bed. Enjoyed being in my home, feeling so safe, protected, cosy. Life is so delicious when I take it as it is and not beating myself up with a mission of finding the right man. Then I showered quickly and listened to landmark's coaching call. The topic was to look what lies beyond being resigned and cynical. Got great insights in my own behavior. Practicing being at work un-resigned and un-cynical now :)  Enjoy your day x    

Almost French: Sarah Turnbull

No internet last night so I missed my blog post. I did meditate in the morning yesterday and then felt a bit sluggish as out on Saturday. Also sad, as we were four girls there, all single and looking for a partner for a couple of years each. Today my neighbor, we've just finished meditation; who came to London a few months ago from Greece, opened the same topic. How many girls she knows that just can't understand why these days it takes so long to find the right partner. Particularly in London. So now I feel, ok, I have enough money to enjoy simple things like nice clothes, good dinners, reading, movies, socializing. I am reading ''Almost French'' second time. Really delicious reading. And my focus and intention is on completing my book. Au revoir! Speak in the morning :)

I give a 100% only when I really have to

Jana's cake

Another birthday party tonight. Looking forward! 

I thought I will be stimulated to edit faster if I have limited time - and things to look forward to in my weekend. But it doesn't really work. Today I started to ask myself does it really matter - why would I even have to complete this book? I've learnt lots about myself from it. But will it be useful for anyone else? Hm...

That's why I am editing, am I not? To make it a useful and insightful read for other women and other people. 

Good night!

Very tired today. Relaxing now and feeling even stronger tiredness. Bedtime soon. Deepak's voice is putting me to sleep.
Good night! - and do meditate properly :-)

Family constellations

We've looked into my relationship with dad again with John Vesey. And how this effects my choice of  men, my desires to have a charismatic and charming man yet at the back I think they are not 100% trustworthy. So part of me wants a relationship but part of me wants to stay safe. Betting on myself as my best company is safe. This work really is moving me further. Looking forward to new learnings. Take care 

John Vesey, osteopath and healer website: John Vesey  

Another trip to John Vesey, hands on healing

Saturday night dinner

It's cold. And I need to travel 1.5h hour to see John Vesey, my newest exploration in the world of healing. It was really good last time, so I excitedly re-booked. All in all looking forward, it is great to relax and connect with him.

Pic from Jana's dinner - loved the restaurant as they serve Serbian pleskavica. Bread is a bit enormous.

Being intimate with the whole world

I feel very disturbed today. I am really sensitive to any small distraction, the psychic has been right. Went to sleep late as I want to finish the ''Almost French'' book that I am reading soon. The more I am getting to know French the more I now think this culture is way too closed and formal for me. The author in the book reports how many tough times she had in France because of that. Yes, of course I'd love to learn the beauty secrets of French women and be a powerful seductress but in reality do I really want that? I love my life to be peaceful, simple, enjoyable, open. A life where I can say everything I think out loud. So yesterday I teased my friend on Facebook and he happens to be from France and he was so offended that he deleted the whole post. That's a different French guy than the one I reported about a month ago. I apologized this morning but the heck, I'd rather have fun with my Balkan brothers that can take me as I am.

Here I am, learning to be intimate with the whole world. It's not that easy peasy, flower power. Hm... :(  

Winter? I need even more of recharge

Oxford Street, London

Nature is mostly having a rest during winter. We humans, we make it lively and shiny by Christmas lights and celebrations. I feel I need more rest too. So I had a very nice meditation with my next door neighbor just now. We had lunch together on Saturday and decided to occasionally meditate together. She can't make it to my group class as starting work too early in the morning. And... she is into energy healing, exploring different techniques... 

Really nice to connect with human beings around me. That's what we are exploring at the intimacy part of sex and intimacy seminar series. Loving all human beings around us. How would life look for you if you felt deep love to everyone around you?     

Effortless flow

Jana's birthday cake

I am not really productive. Keep on dreaming and checking facebook. Deepak says that when we let nature create through us it is effortless, not hard work. Maybe nature wants me to give the editing job to someone else. And I have more time to enjoy and have fun with my friends. 

I really enjoyed Jana's birthday last night.  

Editing weekend

Today I'll be editing whole day, one last ''whole book through'' edit and then I am going to a birthday dinner by a close friend. Knowing I am going to be at the seaside next year in September is giving me tremendous amount of energy. Isn't that funny? Sometimes I hear people saying your retreat or your seminar is starting the day you book it. I get that. It really is like that. Mmmm, I can smell the sea right now :) Be good and follow Chopra's meditations they are really good!  

Sailing!!

Spirala's sailing crew

Got the green light from my boss to go ahead and book my dream sailing. Yay!! Of course I feel now rather excited! 

Tonight I am seeing Robin, my fellow universal medicine student, that is learning to live as a woman, healthy and soft in this rather pushover world. 

Quick meditation in the evening and a long sleep after. Weekend coming, so good! :-)

You are your deepest desire - Upanishads

Spirala's sailing boat

Recharged through the night and listened to Chopra's meditations morning and evening. Deepak expands on a quote from Upanishads - you are what your deepest desire is. As is your desire, so is your intention. The rest of the quote on the blog: 

http://inspired-by-quotes.blogspot.co.uk  

My deepest desire is: to be at peace. And to have a sexy and deeply loving husband. And to live for a while in Paris and spend lots of time next to Mediterranean sea. I am thinking to book sailing holidays for next year. I should just book them tomorrow and stop thinking so much. I am reasonably at peace, regarding husband my psychic thinks I should just relax and prepare myself for him, so what I can do is to book the sailing holidays. And research what I would do for a week in Paris... next year when it gets warmer. Once again: What is your deepest desire? 

 

Heavy tiredness

Paul A Young truffles

Heavy day at work, cold... Evening for chocolates and hiding in bed with a good book. Meditation done, though I still feel so tired. I think is best I go to sleep and start fresh in the morning.

Au revoir mes amis :)

21-day Chopra Centre meditation challenge: Desire and Destiny

It's not too late, you can still join the 21-day Chopra Centre meditation challenge Desire and Destiny  , just click on the link. First day: I am my deepest desire.  

What is my deepest desire? My deepest desire is living life out of deep, the deepest inner peace. When I feel so deeply at peace that everything around me makes sense and I deeply understand everything. What is your deepest desire?

So Hum meditation

Today a new Chopra Centre 21-day meditation challenge is starting. Looking forward to meditate knowing so many thousands of people are doing the same. 

Starting today with So Hum Chopra Centre meditation. Great session on the link here: So Hum Chopra Centre meditation 

Martina Simonic - mixed media artist

Martina Simonic

Thinking of my inspiring friends that do bring their projects to the end. One of them Martina Simonic with her art collection. Her art pieces are very heartwarming, like the hearty piece on my yesterday's post picture. You can check them out here: Martina's paintings. 

I am going to have my piece of writing art finished today too. Enough of hesitation.

Ciao - wishing you a very creative Sunday too.

Restlessness, procrastination and meditation

Femininity corner of my home

The day is ending. I haven't done much. Had a tooth removed, slept after for three hours and then... Tried to catch an inspiration or a surge of energy to give me the power to finish my edit. Browsed you tube videos and the web. In search of inspiration or in doing the procrastination. Why is it so difficult for me to finish? Am I scared of negative reactions? Or am I just procrastinating like always on time consuming tasks I don't like doing?  

Have meditated but I think it is just another way of procrastinating in this case. Had Leonardo Da Vinci also procrastinated as much? Apparently it took him ages to complete something. Below Leonardo's female head is the hearty piece of art from my friend Martina Simonic. This two works of art remind me every morning: I am a woman. Live life feminine way. Don't get trapped into the masculine, need to prove myself, as it never makes me really happy and content. But, I do want to finish my first book asap. To evolve my way of living and contribute it to the second one.  

Bonne nuit! Cheers to a better start tomorrow morning!       

Vesna Flo blog

Hi! Some of you asked me how to find my blog easily through Google, so will experiment with the title Vesna Flo blog - maybe it will get picked up so you can just type that and get to the site.

Early morning! Enjoy your meditation and so will I :-)

Deeply nurturing meditation

A fountain from hotel Regency in Milan where I stayed a few months ago while working at a conference. Pretty, tranquil... That's how I want to feel today whole day. Tranquil, peaceful, with deeply embedded inner peace. Have a great day!   

Chiropractic advice

My chiropractic Paul says I spend far too much time focused on computer screen so my upper vertebrae are all squashed on top of each other by not moving. It's true, I am glued to computer at work and at home. Trying to remember and move my neck a bit more often and change posture, loosen tense shoulders... Meditating on healing my neck vertebrae now. How is your skeleton?     

Feng Shui and Meditation

Made order at home today as I have inspection from the landlords. And... it does feel great. External order influences internal order, and internal order influences external one. This time I had to be forced by an external circumstance (landlord) to make time (1 hour) and do it. My mind thought I am too busy completing my book. 

First rule of feng shui - how to make and use good energy from your environment is simply order and cleanliness. Really nice to relax and meditate in my cute neat home.   :-)

Lunchtime yoga

Looking forward to my lunchtime yoga. Haven't been very productive this weekend, need to catch up with my soul work through the week. Still working on completion of my book edit. Asking the universe to guide me to complete it through the fastest possible way. What is most important thing you want to do right now? Namaste. 

Day dreaming and meditating

Lovely views last night, though too loud music. I think D.J.s get their hearing weakened and then suspect everyone else hears so badly... Though it was worth it - for the views. Lots of fireworks last night.

Now, I am resting and recovering. Day dreaming of living somewhere warm, close to Mediterranean sea. I've found a sale on Ecco Markocija products which use essential oils from Dalmatia (part of Croatia's coast) and I've bought like 10 different things Occo's website. To make me happy and warm at heart over winter in London. Ommm mmmarkocija x      

One hour long Saturday meditation

I give it a year!  -  movie 

Love easygoing, slow weekends. Today I had time to sit in meditation for an hour. To soften my painful shoulders and focused eyes, to open my heart and feel the stomach pain as I've eaten sugary food last night. Ben&Jerry and a movie, my mind still thinks this is a perfect winding down activity. Loved the movie though. Lots of electricity between the two couples involved and gorgeous pics of London. 

Meditation also softened the intensity of the last few weeks which allows me now to enjoy the intimacy of my own company. Yet, am I going any further in strengthening my energy connection? I have not had any revealing dreams except last Thursday or received any messages... So I guess I am still holding back... Relax and meditate deeper, go beyond your normal experience...   :)

Red code Halloween

My answer to Halloween's darkness :-) Sorry just can't accept it. When you are coming from a country walking distance from Venice and Vienna you have appreciation for beauty in your DNA. Well, if you don't spend all your days gardening and preparing Sunday lunch for your family. Though I will be going for a Halloween party in the Gherkin tomorrow. Couldn't resist it because the views of London will be phenomenal!

Feeling very peaceful today, love John Vesey's type of healing work. I will also start doing one to one treatments again soon. When I get around to make order in my place.

Peace with you witches and the haunted  - enjoy your meditations x

Pranayama and shavasana

Lunchtime yoga with Sebastian today. Start with pranayama, finish with shavasana. Feeling fresh, ready to roll on the day. If you want to know more about pranayama, here is a great article from Yoga Journal:

Pranayama and more . I'm off to my Landmark's sex and intimacy evening seminar. 

Healing session with John Vesey

I feel very nice and relaxed though it is very very late. I had a healing session with John Vesey in Teddington and we tackled my relationship issues. I think I am on the right way of healing and issues are now going to be resolved in depth. And then...  - love like a lady ;)

Going to meditate now and start calling in my own powerful energy connection. With strong focus on men I lost 15 years where I did train energetically but men were most of the time my main interest. So I never gave myself to the training fully. NOW is the TIME!! 

Easy, playfully ...

Chris Howard

There has been lots of happening in the last week, I got too involved in it. I feel hard, not easy too relax, meditate or flow sweet energy through the day to keep my wellbeing. So I am going to have a mantra in my head today:  E A S Y, P L A Y F U L L Y :-) 

I first time came across it at Christopher Howard's Breakthrough to Success seminar. He would be describing his martial arts training, how he was very successful at kung fu and then at one point he realized that the best fighters of all martial arts are coming from jiu jitsu and if he wants to win them, he needs to forget kung fu and learn it. Jiu jitsu has this brazilian easy, playfully attitude that allows the energy to flow and express itself as the strongest power (in the world of martial arts).  

If I am taking e a s y, p l a y f u l l y, into my life, of course it makes sense as how can hardness have power? It's hard, unreceptive for fresh energy, so eventually exhausts all its resources. My mind is happy, so let me do some meditation now.    EASY  PLAYFULLY   :-) 

What is obsessive behavior in relationships with men costing me?

So, prediction of my dream came true. The prediction was: ''Your direction (love affair) will be influenced by unconscious childhood trauma, influencing negatively.'' On Thursday morning I woke up all sweaty and had to check the meaning of my dream. This doesn't happen very often, normally I really can't remember what I was dreaming of. As love affair was mentioned I thought it could be something connected with that. 

A day later we had a massive clash with a guy I'd just started to get to know this month. We've talked about our goals and what we both want from life and other meaningful stuff. He would sometimes tease and provoke me a bit, which gave me even more motivation to be clear on things I was describing to him. I felt very vital and productive since our exchange was on. And after two weeks, he would provoke me just a little bit over the top and I exploded: ''If I say to a guy ''I want you'', it means I want you in my life. Not only physically, I see myself with you: living together, travelling together, visiting our parents, having a baby... ''I want you'' are not just flirty words for me. It is REAL. Do you get me you ... '' and I used an insulting word I am really sorry for and I really don't mean he is that. ''And since you are not available it just upsets me.''

Now I only met this guy once. All other exchange was on emails. Yet, my feelings for him were already so intense, like we could speak about living together and having a baby. I became obsessed with him, waking up at 4.30am, checking my email if there is anything new and that would continue throughout the day. 

Before it would be amusing to me, gosh, I am really crazy. My first book describes my heavy infatuation and obsessive behavior and I would be laughing, this woman in the book you know, she is really a bit off. But now I finally see what this is costing me. This sweet and wise man who inspired me so much and made me feel so energetic is now out of my life and doesn't want to speak to me as - no way he wants to have a baby with me, or anything else I described. And plus I insulted him, which really shouldn't happen. And how many times has that happened to me before? 

Negative influence of the unconscious is I think the obsessive behavior I started to explore. I still don't know exactly why I have this behavior. How did it start ..., it's all unconscious. And maybe all together had to happen so I am even more motivated to clean and heal it all.

And then I will finally be ready to love like a lady. ''Love Like A Lady''    I love this song :-)   

Meditation for beauty

Relax your shoulders. Relax your neck. Sit up straight and close your eyes. Though if you close them you can't read this meditation further lol. Relax your forehead. And your cheeks. Concentrate on relaxing every tension on your face. Your mouth can get slightly opened so the jaw is soft, relaxed too. 

Relaxation of your face will expand to other areas of your body though you don't need to think of them except if there is any area really tense. Relax into that area then and when softer come back to your face. Soften into any area of your face that is prone to develop wrinkle lines. And enjoy. Observe your breath. And enjoy. 

Salut - bye! :-)   

Missing my mum and dad

Couldn't remember any unconscious childhood trauma. But maybe it is enough to be warned there is something there. Missing my mum and dad. 

Meditating and sending love to my family.

Have a great weekend!

xxx 

Three french hens

I am having an obsession with everything French. But how do you differentiate from passion and from obsession? If I love something does it mean I am obsessed?

Going deeper into meditation on my obsession. I know something happened in my childhood as I was very very close to my dad and then suddenly over a period of a year we were not that close anymore.   

I love my dad. And my dad loves me. Surrendering deeper into the realm of higher consciousness. Inviting you to go deeper into your meditation practice too. Let me know if anything surprising happens.    

I got woken up by a dream

I woke up, still fresh from the horror of my dream. Usually I don't remember them. So I went to check the dreams dictionary and now I am fully awake. I was trying to run away from someone who looked like he will attack me, and was walking and later running up the road through a forest and it was dark. What was I doing on a forest road during the night? No wonder it was horror.

Meaning - (road) Any direction you are taking, such as love affair, new attitude, business
Meaning - (running away from attack) running away from childhood traumas which will remain unconscious, capable of influencing negatively. Hm, are you supposed to not run away from someone looking dangerous?

Anyway, my direction will be influenced by unconscious childhood trauma, influencing negatively. Meditating on this one now. Maybe I will get some guidance eventually.     

Deep inner peace

Had a meditation session for my neighbors again this morning and I feel at much deeper level of inner peace than I've been lately. I exist for people to live out of inner peace :-) 

Glyn, the psychic reader from Monday also said I need to open up more, open to receive messages on moving further the areas I want to move. He said that's why you meditate, to get guided!

Hm, I talk about this being possible and I experienced it before but lately I do hold myself very guarded. Before it would happen either because I would be desperate or because I would trust my Chinese teacher so much I would just melt. Now... I need to work on being able to melt away again. Surrender... I'll do it again in the evening with a surrender to the universe energy theme.  Have a great day!   

My session with a psychic reader

with Mark Anastasi

Three years ago I was working intensely with my internet marketing and business mentor Mark Anastasi. He would time to time mention he is using a psychic reader when clarifying his business directions. He would be using this particular psychic as quite a few other business people were using him with great results. I had my first session in August, and most important question on my mind was about my relationship. Who is my ''the one''? And when is he coming? Psychic would tell me to meditate, heal, and not to focus on relationship area of my life. ''Your husband is coming like a knight in a shining armor.'' I've had a couple of sessions with different masters and this would come up for me quite often, so I wasn't that surprised. When other people would get some clues about their the one, I would get the answer, don't focus, develop your energy abilities first. Really Vesna. I had another session last night. Again. No clue whatsoever. 

But I got something else. I've realized a few days ago I develop an obsessive way of behavior when I get really attracted by someone. And the psychic pointed that out. You need to heal this obsessive behavior to its root. Otherwise your knight will come and you will not be ready! 

I've talked to a couple of friends recently and they admitted they are doing the same thing. As you get infatuated with a guy, you start checking your phone and your email every hour to see has he sent anything? I would also google and facebook and try tracing anything about them. And I would feel all shaky inside, goodbye inner peace. 

So I decided my next chapter of self love work and writing (in my second book) will be dedicated to healing the obsessiveness. And that is the aim of my today's meditation. What are you working on?    

Iyengar yoga and meditation

Nothing better than a good stretch with shavasana finish during lunch break when doing whole day of typing and computer staring. A bit of sunbathing would be nice too, but well, too short those sweet breaks. Hope you will enjoy your meditation today. 

Dancing meditation with Natalie Benhayon

with Natalie Benhayon

Natalie Benhayon is an amazing expression of femaleness. She is one of the most inspiring ladies in esoteric women's group. Today we've been doing movements, like circles of number 8 out of the core and I feel again sweet and very female. Though I also feel my body more, the tiredness, the stiff parts in my lower belly, tension in shoulders... So I am going to take a nap now  :-)

Natalie led the dancing part. She said she got inspired by Persian female dancing. There was a lot of esoteric knowledge developed in ancient Persia. Would love to know more. 

Here is the link to upcoming women's group meetings, next one will be in London I think in the new year: http://www.sphericalliving.co.uk/upcoming-events . 

Deepak Chopra on meditation and stress reduction

Hi! Continuing my journey with Deepak Chopra, love this video where he is explaining and leading meditation for Tara Stiles, a famous yoga teacher in US. Enjoy it: Meditation & Stress Reduction

Deepak Chopra's guided meditation

Today I want to relax deeply and fast. Will listen to this Deepak Chopra's guided video:  Deepak Chopra's guided meditation.  Good night!

Your husband called and said buy whatever you like!

Our evening meditation session at a school in Slovenia would usually start with ''how are you?'' where one would have a chance to celebrate and share gratitude for any good things that happened during the day and also to release any fears or frustrations. I am grateful for this peaceful evening where I have time to relax and later on enjoy the call with my fellow sex and intimacy seminar students. 

My prayer and my wishes: dear universe, I would really like to have a husband. A nice one, like the one on the pic on your right. I know I refused some good options you sent my way, thinking I can get something better, but I think I am ready now, I've really seen and experienced enough to know how to value a good man.

Thank you.

Namaste and have a good night everybody!    

Meditation with my neighbours

Zumba last night! Always makes me happy and helps to release tensions and frustrations. 

Though I woke up again all itchy of  wishing to move things forward but... then I don't. We had meditation with my neighbours this morning, that was nice. I can say I ticked my daily meditation. But it didn't really ''still'' me like it usually does. Maybe moving things with my book publishing in the evening will ''still'' me.

Have a good day and hope you are feeling the stillness :-)    

Sweet meditation en francais

After zumba and dance pilates feeling knackered.
Very sweet meditation in my favorite language: Relaxation guidée - voyage dans une bulle  . Good night!

Iyengar yoga and meditation

Had a really relaxing yoga practice today at lunchtime. After a weekend of computer screen and reading, it felt really amazing to deeply stretch and then at the end indulge in shavasana. If you want to know more about meditation in shavasana, here is the link:  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shavasana

Savina Atai and 9 Months Self Care Challenge

Savina Atai - face yoga

One of the people that inspire me most is a Slovene girl Savina Atai. She has studied with different spiritual, nutrition, yoga and other exercises teachers from the early age of 5. In the last few years she has created a huge self care movement among Slovene women focused on the right nutrition, relaxation and rejuvenation exercises. I've followed her previous challenge and it helped me to release sadness of an unfulfilled relationship expectation in two days. As I started to practice with her exercises, meditation and face yoga plan, all I began to be interested in was - me. This week she is presenting exercises to heal dark under-eye circles which are my regular feature so am looking forward to that. But before that - 10 min silent meditation in my bed. Enjoy your Sunday!           

Silent meditation

Deep breath in, deep breath out... It's time to say goodbye to another day. Will sit in silence for 10 min and then looking forward to my cosy, warm bed. Hope you had time for meditation today if not join me.
Bonne nuit!

Prof Tony Howell and ''The 2 Day Diet'' book

Prof Tony Howell and me Vesna Flo

A busy day at work today and afterwards I went and found a nice pair of boots I wanted. Intentions do work :)  Prof Tony Howell visited our institute and I mentioned I've seen his book as one of bestsellers on amazon. He told me how it came to that and what the research data really showed that works and it is all in ''The 2 Day Diet'' book. Looks like diet books are a way to go as I have another colleague from my previous job that has just recently got published also on weight loss topic. Shall we do a weight-loss meditation? Hihihi. I usually need to make sure to keep weight but it wouldn't be bad to do the breathing exercises that help digestion and with weight regulation and then - good night!    

Why do I exist again?

Bibury, Cotswold

So pretty! That's also one of the houses from the village called Bibury. A nice home and a man - that's all I would need to be truly happy. I think. Giving myself to the universe now with a mind-empty meditation. Empty. Soften your shoulders, your cheeks, soften the muscles around your spine, Vesna. And just be. Be empty. Let the surroding energy enter you and move you to a higher level. A level where I fulfill the mission of my existence. A level much higher than a fairytale dream  - please universe give me my prince and a castle :) Why do I exist again? Join me. Living life out of inner peace.    

Why do I exist?

I've joined Landmark's sex and intimacy seminar series to resolve what is stopping me from having a handsome and caring man in my life. When we went through the curriculum an important part of it is to know ''why do I exist?''. Sounds as a version of ''Who am I?'' to me. I came to a sentence that sounds true to me. I exist for people to live out of inner peace. I exist for people to live out of inner peace.

This will become my today's meditation mantra as I feel rather unpeaceful myself and the usual don't think, be empty, doesn't work. I exist for people to live out of inner peace. Why do you exist? :)  

Letting go

Lunchtime today 

Deep breath in... deep breath out... deep breath in... deep breath out...
dear universe
please let me release all frustrations
[a minute of silence]
dear universe
please pour sweet purifying energy through me

I allow myself to relax really really deep

I allow myself to connect to higher consciousness sphere
I allow myself to accept any ideas that might appear
I allow myself to let go of me    I let go of me

Deep relaxation needed

Party time!

One late night and I still have not recovered. But I do look good on this photo from Friday's party, don't I? Today I went shopping for black flat boots, tried like ten of them, didn't like any. Dear universe energy, help me with styling, I don't have that much time to run around town to find one female friendly, pretty pair of boots. Tomorrow my regular zumba and dance pilates class, so next shopping time might be on Wednesday. I also promised myself I will write the latest happenings into my second book, but it is already so late. How do I spend all my days not managing to do anything meaningful? I will do it now. The heck with beauty sleep. xx  

5 min meditation first.      

Releasing sadness through meditation

That's my friend Jana. We've done some healing work today and than walked through the beautiful rose gardens in Regents park of London. It's a bit sad day today for me as I decided to let go of my fantasy, and let the man we've been in contact for 2 months go. I don't know will I ever meet someone so nice, warm and caring again. So now my heart is a bit sad and scared. What would I say to a client in this situation? Take a really good care of yourself. Relaxing meditation, have a long hot shower, and early sleep. Not enough sleep and feeling overemotional goes together hand in hand. So,  au revoir x