Chiropractic adjustment with Paul McCrossin

Sailing Adriatic sea - Hvar, Croatia

Deep breath in, expanding your diaphragm, deep breath out... and the diaphragm relaxes. Deep breath in, repeat and out...

I've been having tense and at times quite painful upper belly for months - since April. I haven't talked about it to my chiropractic as he works on my spine and I didn't think his methods would work on my belly. Yet tonight, after I last time told him about my issue and worry that something might be seriously wrong with my stomach, he gave me an amazing strong upper belly massage. Really deep release. 

And he showed me how to breathe. With life expanding breaths. And he showed me:''You are mostly like this... [slouching] and your diaphragm is contracting.''

And I got it. I organised myself a really sweet, small, protected life. I manage my job well as it is small, small responsibilities, maybe being smiley a bit and I go by. I do not open up for a new man with a good excuse of being too busy, yet I do not open up as a man in my life means a threat to my organised lifestyle. I don't finish my book writing because ''what if a book is a disaster'' - it will make me feel miserable, but even more ''what if my book is a success'' - and I will be exposed to lots of stress and facing the unknown...

My Serbian coffee cup reader says: ''This scenario that you are writing... do that, this will be a success.'' It makes me feel excited, yet also paralyzed.

I am slouching, protecting my littleness. Little lungs, little heart, and now my stomach says it doesn't want to be little. Let's eat big!

I am going to write tonight, forgetting the healthy sleep hours. I need a breakthrough of the slouching littleness.

And if you live in London, a visit to a chiropractor Paul McCrossin http://www.finchleychiro.co.uk  is highly recommended. I spend 45 min on a tube each way to get to him. 

           

Chopra Centre Miraculous Dynamism mp3 meditation

Hi! :)

Hope you've found plenty of ear pleasing meditations on my blog. Here there is one introduced by Oprah Winfrey and led my Deepak Chopra. Enjoy: Chopra Centre mp3 meditation. I am seeing a healer John Vesey in Teddington again tonight. Looking forward to my growth and healing. Bisous 

Living Passionately

Last evening of my Living Passionately course tonight. It was great to meet up all these interesting people there, as well as more advanced writers and get feedback from one of them. I also got that I am more vital if I am active than when I hold myself back saving energy for ''important'' work. I did practice to live every day in the same gorgeous feelings like being on a retreat - it went well for a week... I guess I need to make a conscious decision to do it daily. And I did get practical tools to navigate the beginnings of my new relationship. Redesigned relationship better said, as we know each other with my sweetheart for many years. I guess I've learned many other little extras on the way, looking forward to conclude my journey and continue in more relaxing healing waters for a while.  

Pilates class - twice today!

Talked today to my colleagues at work how bad is our posture during 8 hours a day computer focused job. I've showed them the exercises my chiropractor asked me to do to even out my right shoulder as the effect of holding to the mouse is making one of my shoulders be higher than the other. The thing is I know the exercise but I do it very rarely. We do a lot of these stretch ups at pilates class so I've decided I will attend two today - one happened at lunch time and running to another one now. I feel so fabulous in my body when properly stretched! :-))  

Au revoir x    

Richard Gere on Meaning of Life

Richard Gere

We were discussing our purposes with my neighbor last night and I got her thinking with something I've just discovered for myself. Of course I have the grande purpose of ''inner peace for all'' and than even more grande one: ''I inspire people to grow'' but how I am really living shows: My life is simple, easy to manage, small. Because I like to have an overlook, control, feeling safe. 

Researching other people's meanings of life, came across Richard Gere: Richard Gere on Meaning of Life

What is your life's purpose? 

Simple

Easy times

Wonderful long weekend. I've sunbathed in the park and decluttered one third of my home. Feels much fresher and can't wait to finish the rest next weekend. I've recharged and am back to normal energy levels after a period of feeling really drained. 

Thinking about how to continue with my meditation/living inside out explorations. One major portion of my time will be for a while invested in studying how to write: structure, language... I thought I can write well without it but after I got a very sharp feedback from one of the guys reading my work, I've realized he has a point. I am going to go back to regular simple posts of my meditation practise and will not pressurized myself with too deep stuff, except if I get really inspired by it. So my hanging out with all of you meditators will be like hanging out with good friends with a bottle of something that makes you happy. 

Au revoir x

  

Self-worth?

So much soothing and nurturing energy at our women's meetings... I always get to relax way deeper than normally. We discussed self worth  - when do we feel that we have it and when do we lose it. 

I still feel the burn in my stomach so I think I will first dedicate myself to heal this, before going into other ''deep'' topics.

Hope you are all well and enjoying the lovely Chopra Centre meditations x